Life sucks and then?

As you can see by my title, this is one of those bad days!  I have to admit I have very few of them but this is the day.  Started out like any other day.  I went to Effingham for radiation at 7:30 A.M.  Back around 10:30.  Felt a little energy so I decided to make some candles for my new business.   Got the mail, none for me except medical bills!  At least they put a Holiday stamp on them, that impressed me.    Have lost my energy with the candles, ran out of ink to do my new labels and ran out the candle jars that I really like!  That pissed me off!   OK Have I mentioned lately that I'm in the bathroom every 5 seconds and I burn in places I don't want to burn.  I had planned on going back to work on Tuesday but have decided to take my full 3 months of medical leave.  This is the second thing that really pisses me off!  I love my job, miss my clients and coworkers and I'M NOT GETTING PAID!  LOL    So I decided to do a little research about Cancer on the net.  OK I have said before that I needed to quit reading.  My doctors have given me my prognosis, but every time I go on a research binge, I read all the bad possibilities and stay away from the positive!  What the hell.  Its like going to the doctor and saying "Doc it really hurts when I put my arm like this"  and the doctor says "Well quit putting your arm like that....idiot!"  I know what I need to be doing and thinking but for today, I'm going to feel sorry for myself for just a couple more hours then I plan on snapping the hell out of it!  God Bless